Not so much Sawdust lately.....

How do you know when you're reacting to temporary stress as opposed to the need for a serious change in your life?

I have so many things pressing on my mind right now, but how much of that is temporary?  I'm feeling a general discontent with where I am in life....  feeling unsatisfied professionally and personally.

I'm no longer sure that I'm in the right industry... I have zero desire to freelance, I'm tired of moving for jobs, I'm getting tired of doing the exact thing semester after semester. There are tons of jobs but none appeal to me. I am tired of building projects that look basically the same because there aren't the resources.... there is basic maintaince things that will never bean addressed because there is never the money. I am not artistic enough to be good in different areas. And I'm tired..... this isn't quite what I mean, but I'm tired of being in charge.  I would dearly love to have a little more structure to my job.... working independently as part of a collaborative process is all well and good, but I'm tired of it. But how does one change careers without that terrifying leap of faith... I'm also tired of constantly wondering if my job will be cut or I will be required to move on at some point.... years of job uncertainty wears on one.   On the other hand, this is my fourth year at my current position, which has always been a year of transition for me.  I was asked to leave both my previous jobs in this year, and while that does not seem to be in the cards this year, I wonder if it is making me feel edgier than I should be.

I'm also on the edge of believing that as much as I love Columbia, I will never find a partner here... and the grief I have been dealing with would be muh more tolerable if I had someone by my side to share it with.....